future, and how young we are
    hmm.. it was more of an on and off relationship from beginning to end... i dont really know if there really is a story to tell, i tell it better in my mind, and after all this time keeping it to myself its so hard putting it down. we started out as friends, i was with someone else at the time and on that day, she asked me to leave that person for her, she outed me on my feelings for her and i was so unaware she took me by surprise when she told me she knew i had feelings for her. we talked all night about it, and on the next school day i couldnt get the courage to break up with the other person i was with. she got really upset, and left the school. i remember i was so depressed, worst depression ever. i just remember certain days that we spent together really as a couple. i think that when you fall in love for the first time, its like being born all over again, just another side of you. even though it ended the way it did, well everything of that part of my life and however its considered to be i cant imagine now wishing it all away. i would go back and experience it all again in a heartbeat, something that ive never felt before.
    we met in a locker room... i remember it so vividly, i was sitting by myself and she just started talking to me.. and from then on she was in my life until she moved away.
    inside jokes.. memories we made from when we were friends, her sense of humor and our perfect relationship.
    that feeling that she gives me, butterflies in my stomach.
    that gap that we had inside of us, obstacles and because of the circumstances that we could never make time for each other, misunderstandings and not being able to tell each other everything.
    put those hard feelings aside for a moment, ive imagined that worst case scenario millions of times, i hope it never happens
    she could gather the courage to say something to me, some closure in our relationship.
    no one, really.
    "i love you"