cause of death:he's john tucker! men are so stupid! then there's his infidelity, fear of commitment, ghosts of his past & scars from the iraq war.
    our relationship started hot & heavy, couldn't see each other enough, talked for hours on the phone every day/night. then it all came to a screeching halt after our first fight, cause i walked out on him & he didn't come after me. it went to hell fast after that, i ended it, tried to move on. that landed me into a soap opera love triangle, being pulled in 2 directions- i lost them both. i spent 2 years witht he other guy. after than ended, i found chris again, tried to make it work one more time. yes, i know i'm pathetic. it finally ended for good when he didn't show for my b-day. i'd had all i could take.
    we met on adultfriendfinder.com, not expecting to fall in love.
    i will never forget his laugh, one liners, amazing smile, the awesome sex & how beautiful he made me feel.
    i will miss the closeness, the way i slept so well in his arms, the fun we always had together- no matter what we did, his cooking, & the amazing sex!
    i will not miss not knowing where he is, when he'll call or show up, if he's being faithful, or how much he's lied to me this week.
    i'll be better off if i never see him again. he left me with scars to last a lifetime.
    i'm disappointed he can't grow up, can't get over the past, can't move on, can't be a man. i'm also sad for the fact that a great deal of his problems go back to his ex wife. if she hadn't destroyed his trust & hadn't kept him from his daughter, things might be different.
    i'll miss his parents, they treated me like family from day one.if they could only get their grown son to grow up some day.
    never trust john tucker- you always get hurt.