cause of death: his unwillingness to admit he needed help, inability to cut back on his drinking, refusal to admit he was wrong.
    we broke up & got back together more times than i can count, but it finally stuck after a health scare. we were really happy til my health took a nose dive, slowly things got harder & harder. a death in his family started the domino effect from hell & it all went from bad to worse, costing us everything.
    we met on alt.com while i was trying to get rid of my last bf, who just wouldn't let go. casey didn't know, it became a love triangle- big mistake.
    i will never forget how loved he made me feel. i'll never forget him singing songs to me, by a band he hated. he learned them for me, cause i loved the band. he saved my life on several occasions, when my mental health wasn't there. he tried to tell me, over & over my dr's were killing me & i didn't listen, he was right.
    i will miss how people used to look at us together in public- we made a striking couple. i will miss his massages, the unbelievable sex, how he adored me & treated me like a goddess.
    i will not miss his nasty fetishes. i will not miss is psychotic rants, his obsessions & hero worship of people who deserve no attention of any kind.
    i am so much better off if i never see him again. he's so charismatic, he will suck me back in & i can't let that happen.
    i am disappointed that a man who has accomplished so much, against bad odds, still can't be man enough to own up to his flaws & problems.
    the only family members of his i liked were his grandma, aunt gloria & cousin clint. but he managed to turn clint against me since the break up- so childish.
    never trust a guy who can't admit he's wrong.