Anger and blame and unwillingness to see that things were not improving are just a few of the reasons this relationship died. Immaturity and honesty are also to blame. His Immaturity--he has so much potential if he could learn to grow up some and learn how to treat people. I'm stronger without him in my life and I am a better person without him. I miss him and I still love him but I knew it was time to let go.
         They met accidentally online,started talking and realized they were taking a class in college together. The first time that they met was at a Waffle House, how ironic, she had family and a friend with her. CTD came alone and he and MJA sat there and talked after a while he had to go. So he said we will meet up later on maybe and she agreed. MJA's friend and cousin were not that crazy about him and they told her so. MJA and CTD start dating in July it takes 4 months for CTD to make a move, then 3 months later they are engaged. Now at first MJA is not that into him and she knows right away its not going to work out and she tries to let him down as gently as possible. CTD persists and in the end he wins her over.
They fall in love and face many obstacles. The first obstacle they face is MJA's jealousy of his exes that he is still friends with, another obstacle is when he comes out and tells her he hates her parents. That should have been the first warning sign. She takes in stride,but she lets him know that hey I don't talk about your family and you don't about mine. The first year is good, the second year CTD and his family open up a hobby store. This is another problem they face. MJA understands the business,but CTD lets his family and the business come between him and MJA. They struggle and come to the agreement that when the store closed that is their time together. Things go well for awhile then other problems crop up. His jealousy over her friendships he accuses her of cheating but she's not. In the end after 4 and half years of being engaged MJA calls it quits in January but CTD refuses to let go. MJA has moved on and started seeing other people. He knows this but doesn't seem to care. He lets his pride, his family and their business come between them and he ignores MJA and he does things that he knows will make her mad. In the end he blames her and she blames him. Sad to say MJA's mother becomes deathly ill. He tells her you have to choose its her or me. MJA looks at him and says that's easy My mom comes first in my life, I have put you before my own family and I will do it no longer. You put your family and your needs before me but yet I have been there for you through thick and thin and now when I need you the most you give me an ultimatum. I am sorry I do love you and I always will and I hope you find happiness in your life. MJA parts ways with CTD. It ends bitterly, MJA goes on to take care of her mother whom passed from this life in November 2005. It made MJA a stronger person and she found someone else that was there for her in the end and now she is happily married. CTD moved on with his life and is supposedly engaged but will he do this young lady the same way that he did MJA. Time will only tell. Pray for him that God will change his ways and guide him in his life and make him grow up and face reality. Pray for MJA that she will continue to have a happy life with her husband. She started anew and is happier with herself and growing stronger in her walk with the Lord. Good things did come from this relationship, but all good things must come to an end.

    CTD will be remembered for being kind,generous, loving and all the good times that they had while they were together. CTD will also be remembered for the emotional abuse that he put MJA through and he will be remembered has being a Momma's boy. MJA will be remembered for being strong for everyone throughout the whole relationship and for giving up a part of her life where every one else could be happy.
    MJA will miss looking into his soft twinkling brown eyes and being held and told that he loves her. She will miss his touch and his warmth. She will miss the good the times that they did share.
    MJA will not miss the let downs that CTD caused , she will not miss the ways that he talked down to her or the way that he treated her from time to time. MJA will not miss the heartache that he caused her.
    If MJA and CTD never see each other again the world will keep turning and they will go on being happy with their lives the way that they are. If MJA never sees him again her heart will not ache with the wondering of what if, or the knowing of what could have been.
    MJA is sad to think that 4 and half years of her life was spent loving some one that didn't love her as much as she loved him. She is sad that things had to end the way that they did. She has forgiven him for all the things he put her through but what is sad is that he blames it all on her. She is disappointed in him for that and for other things that can go unmentioned.
    MJA is the lone survivor of this failed engagement. She is stronger and better off and happily married and living in another state now. CTD is still in the same state and still under Mom and Dad's rule with a new girl. I hope it works out for them.
    I am woman hear me roar!!!