he met another woman and fell in love and emailed me that he was getting married and that he only knew her for 3 months!
    we met on an internet dating site. He sent me a picture and he's really HOT so I wrote back and asked "When can we meet?" We met and it was wonderful. I was leaving for a year to study abroad in the Netherlands and he didn't want me to go and broke up with me on the night before my flight to Amsterdam. He still emailed me while I was overseas, so I thought we actually had a chance of getting back together. I wrote to him that I was willing to use $1,000 of my school loan money to fly him to Amsterdam....that was when he emailed me back that he was getting married and only knew the woman for 3 months. I guess they must have had really hot sex or something. They both worked in a nursing home, so I guess maybe they were soulmates. ???
    through an internet dating site
    his spirituality. we would get up at 5am and meditate for an hour. I lost my virginity with him and it was exactly how I wanted my first time to be. He was very gentle with me and I'm so glad I waited until I was 27 years old. It was really worth waiting for.
    how hot he is. After we slept together, I said like a little song "I had a hot guy! I had a hot guy!" and he would just smile and laugh. :)
    He kept saying "I'm not good enough for you. I'm not smart enough for you." I had a masters degree at the time and I told him he was making an issue out of something that I didn't even care about. He kept saying those things, so I finally said "Why don't you go back to college and finish your degree, since it means so much to you???" He never did go back to school, at least not with me. In some ways, I feel if me having a masters degree threatened him, I kinda feel I'd have to say that I would have much rathered him never getting involved with me in the first place. I'm an intelligent woman. I don't think he could really deal/accept that.
    Live my life and move on. I have no plans of ever seeing him again. I don't feel he was the right guy for me as far as finding a life partner goes. I believe the woman he married never wants to travel outside of Pennsylvania and probably barely got through high school (so she's not an intellectual threat to him).
    I wish Dustin had more self confidence. I thought we were getting married and that we were in love.....but it was my first time and I think women are culturally conditioned to want to give their virginity to the man they marry. That won't happen with me and my future husband (if I'm destined to get married)....In some respects I'm glad it happened. I'm 33 now and can you imagine being 33 and a VIRGIN??? I'm glad I have experienced it. It was a nice experience. I can put tampons in SO MUCH better and easier now. And the gyno doesn't hurt as much either. I wouldn't recommend HAVING sex so you can put in tampons easier and have a more pleasant experience at the gyno....but I do feel these are nice fringe benefits and I feel we did love each other while we were together. I'm really glad I didn't get pregnant with him. I was on the pill but that's only 99% effective. I couldn't have gotten Dustin out of my life if I had a child by him. He was really into Buddhism and we talked about how if I got pregnant we'd have to do something that would give us both good karma, which I believe he meant I should have the baby. I'm glad I never had a baby by him because I think it's hard to get a guy out of your life when he's the father of one or more of your kids. ?
    I met his father and biological mother. He has a step mother, who I never did meet. I cried for him for 2 and a half years. I think I had the worst case of heart break anyone could have. Dustin and I dated for 9 months before we slept together. I'm making it harder for the next guy. I'm not planning to have sex with anyone until I have an engagement ring. I want to know a man is VERY serious about me. I feel I'm currently seeking my husband and he is currently seeking me out as well.
    Dustin said to me the night before I left for the Netherlands "You might as well leave. There's nothing for you here." He was right. I'm not giving up/trading my memories of Holland, Belgium, and Germany for his ass. Overall, I say I made the right decision....and flew across the Atlantic where I earned my second masters degree in health psychology at Leiden University.