This eulogy actually comes 10 years too late and if circumstances were different would be delivered in person instead of cyberspace. In short, boy met girl; boy and girl had on again/off again relationship; girl ended relationship badly.
    Our quirky time together died in an ugly and painful manner. David - I am truly sorry for not having the faith and courage to believe that relationships work. Seeing 3 generations of dysfunction in action isn't a valid excuse for the way I kept you at arms' length emotionally. You deserved so much better and I wish things had worked out differently.
    We met as moody teenagers and kept in touch throughout crazy college times here in California.
    You had once said that "we see each other in cycles" but our lives have taken such divergent paths that it is unlikely we'll ever see each other again.
    I'll miss your smile and looking up into your beautiful blue eyes.
    I will not miss the constant feelings of dread that things would not work out or end badly which, ironically, turned out to be a self-fulfilling prophecy.
    If I never see you again I will regret not apologizing in person for the horrible things I said and not being there when your mother died.
    Also, I am disappointed that I never had the guts to tell you that in my own messed up way I did care for and love you.
    Be happy in your marriage and prosperous in your career!