He fell in love with an ex again, I never even knew he felt strongly about her.We met when I never thought Id never find love again, we went on lovely dates and spent a lot of time hanging out and chatting about our lives and plans together.

Then I had to move away for work, as I will never reliquish my independence for a guy, and neither should u.Now that Im moving back,again for work reasons, thought things would get better, but the prospect of me being home again scared him and he ended it.I accept I put work before love in a sense.
    Strangely, we first met after my grandmothers funeral, i guess i was vulnerable and he took advantage of that.

Will not miss him cheating on me ,twice.First time i forgave, second time i left. Or him not being honest.I will miss the adventures, love, bittersweet kindness ,but it was mixed with horrid betrayal.Another reminder of the fickleness of men,although women are usually unfairly credited (by men) with this trait.
    His smile and way of making me feel relaxed was magic.His half-hearted kisses at the end were not. His sweet words and mean actions, committment phobia. Pure lazyness will be a bygone era as I move, energised into a new exciting, ambitious phase of my life.
    I intend to find ways to be more relaxed on my own, and seek other, better things to smile about.And be delighted with my situation either way if I see him again or not.
    I opened my heart to another loser again. To be so ready to change my life for this person, and then have this person vanish from it,was the hardest aspect of the whole thing.This all happened last week. I`m still shocked,although rational and positive, because I have experienced betrayal from other men and I know it`s not worth dwelling on losers, better to focus on becoming one of life`s self made winners.

Im the survivor of this relationship baby, in the words of Christina Aguilera, "Cant Keep Me Down"
F___ U Kingkong ,.... friends?........ I think not dearest.